Everyone, I haven't done a journal in a while but my conscience was telling me I had to write this down so here it is.
I was at TV Tropes reading about a hospiced girl who saw the movie Up after a Pixar employee mailed a DVD of it to her. This was before the movie came out on DVD; the employee made the DVD and sent it to her without making it a publicity stunt. Pixar made her wish come true just for the sake of it. This made me feel sad since I paid attention to how the girl was hospiced, and I imagined a few things of great meaning after that.
I learned I could tell my kids and grandkids the story of how I recently started an effort to improve all of my problems to become mature, independent, and fully capable of behaving and functioning like everyone else. I stopped doing compulsions, started practicing hygiene commonly, stopped stimming (playing with my hands), stopped eating sweets, and started an ongoing effort to follow my dreams and goals in the entertainment industry and become someone I never was before and do the things I always could have done but never did. I was unwilling to make this change earlier, but I'm glad I'm doing it now. I am 20 years old now and I'm glad I'm making this change. This story will inspire my family's future generations, perhaps the world, to make a change for themselves for the better like I did.
Another thing I learned was something from TV Tropes about art: art is not making you feel good. It's making you feel. I did not initially understand what it meant, but I figured it meant feeling for all that is good and for lessons that make these good things possible. I remembered that most of my ideas I have for entertainment media are thematic; they have lessons and meanings to them. And while I won't give examples, I will tell you it's true that my work is thematic. So my art, as I leaned, is about making people feel for good things and the lessons making them possible. As a creator, I encourage all other prospective creators not to do work for money, but for five things with this mindset I have: the critics, the industry, the consumers, the art, and the fans. That's who I will serve as a creator.
So, I hope you learn from this. And maybe get inspired.